Sweet bingeing
Long before I could babble a word
The moist sweetness of her milk
Ran deep in my memory river
Many more nuances I slowly discovered
On its own
the unadulterated sweetenness choked my palate
but in a peanut butter sandwich
sesame paste rice dumplings
a slice of juice-dripping peach
I wallowed in weightless bliss in every morsel
Soothingly it lifted the fog of sorrow
Away from the humming boredom of school
Small letdowns in family dinners
The passive watching of shit TV shows
The tedious loops of hours awake and dreams forgotten
I curled up in a bed of candy floss, momentarily
Drifting through countless
timorous days of my youth
Years gone by
before it dawned on me,
An inkling
in a spoonful of honey and a sip of steamy hot chocolate
How my cravings were murmurings
What my heart was pining for